It really is interesting how this particular blogger can keep his audience for long and I am one who has been a regular to his blog site.
A recurring theme I’ve found on his blog is his mantra of punching the damn keys. And so I thought I would create mine as well?
After all, the essence of blogging for me is having some platform to express my soul.
So here goes…
“Type unless you’re asleep!”
If I could explain this, I mean, I should focus on my writing whenever I have the chance to. Trade offs include watching television, chitchatting, sewing, and many more.
Really we never know. So here I am, at around 11 pm, thinking about writing. And reading of course. And doing the act.
Just can’t help sharing to you one of the people I got inspiration from in order to blog.
You just have to click the link below to find out what she’s up to!
Happy first birthday, Denisse. I love you so much!
So you’ve finally arrived. And you thought, Ahhh… Was that it? Is that all there is to it? Is it really that simple?
Then you lift your head, while your eyes wander back to the place where you came from then you see someone trying to figure out as well their way to the destination.
Now you remember all the hardships you went through. The questions you asked. The things you wished you knew. The gratitude you felt when someone helped you. What you promised to yourself when time comes.
It’s easy to talk now that you’ve achieved what you’ve been dreaming all along.
But you have to decide: Go immediately to the next? Or become some bridge first that helps?
I have never asked for these kids but you have given them anyway.
Things just happened the way they did and so here I am, sometimes lost, sometimes bewildered…
It feels like everything that I do is never enough for them and even I admit that I have never been anything good with regards to rearing these youngs.
And so I ask these things so I may be able to at least do something right in being a mother of these children. Help me, God.
- Keep them away from my anger, so they may be able to take refuge somewhere else safe;
- Don’t allow them to be impoverished by laziness, over indulgence, pride, overspending, and the like;
- Refine them from being boisterous, loud, and proud;
- Guide them daily, so they may be able to discern wise from unwise;
- Let them befriend wisdom;
- Help them learn cleanliness and orderliness;
- Make them appreciate all the simple things in life, that they may take a break from gadgets, televisions, and many more; and
- Last but the greatest, take care of them and make your word and glory known to them, but never testing them, only delivering them from evil as was said in the formula prayer that you taught your disciples, Lord.
These I ask of you, my Dear God, my saviour, my provider, my everything.
P.S.: Have I ever thanked You, Lord, for giving them to me? Thank you for these little ones. Them three (DEXTER, DAVIES, DENISSE). Sweet little creatures who came from my womb (2011, 2016, 2019).
Nope! It’s just a cheat title but yeah has some significance to what I want to say. Just that I’ve been feeling down and not very optimistic over the past hours and so I was just trying to do what I have to do, encoding equations for my Math modules, browsing this and that in hope of bitsy bits. I was mindlessly reading my emails from top to bottom, middle to top, then down again and over and over, when I came across this blog article, Be Kind, Be Inspired, by a favorite local writer. The last part goes…
“Maybe if I knew music, I’d create. Or if I knew art, I’d Cezanne myself my own “Boy in the Red Vest”. But no. So I must write. I must revive the appetite for searching things which are beautiful and be compelled to imprint them in words. To remind myself that humanity is interesting and thus I ought to be kinder. And that every sunset is different from the one yesterday and that I ought to be inspired.”
It rekindled the small fire I always have within me which is every so often almost extinguished by my own windiness.
I need to remind myself over and over that I have already trudged the path I was so willing to take that looking back is not an option just yet. I have to get the answer for my quest of the unknown and that I have to go there, to the destination I so wanted to arrive at. Thus, I ought to be inspired to keep going whatever the odds may be.
And yes, I’m asking the self to forgive that other for always being the skeptic and cynic about almost everything.
So long for the end of this journey (if one gets what I mean, whatever that is).
P.S. That favorite local writer is also an aspiring baker. You may check her site at this address: http://www.yzagada.com.
Zerlin has many selves. In this post will be the Zerlin’s teacher self. So below are her resolutions after this quarantine.
Zerlin’s Post-Quarantine Resolutions:
- Give students the Zerlin’s ebook for the subject. Purpose: to have some sort of module just in case things like this happen again.
- Plan lessons not for the sake of compliance but for the sake of “because it is what needs to be done.”
- Discuss with, teach, talk to, not nag at, smile at, appreciate, motivate, listen to students whenever chance permits.
- Bring back passion in teaching.
We only live once. As this pandemic is making us realize. I do what I want to do. I’ll post what I need to post. If ever He calls me, at least I’ve said a little of what I hope for after all of these.
I live to see
I live today
Like I did yesterday
Yet my faith is shaky
And my heart feels empty
Now my eyes are puffy
When will I trust in Thee?
I was havin’ a real hard time synthesizing all the things happening to me these days when suddenly these students appear!
They were my students in Basic Calculus back in 2018 and I remember having long, honest, animated conversations, discussion with them. They, and few more from their section, were a set of scholarly and bright and intelligent, also passionate and diligent students. They would always impart their learnings and insights and unbeknownst them had a very great impact on me. They would not even hesitate to give encouragement to my dreams and suggestions to my problems (ako na teacher, ako pa ininspire). Of course, “Math” and “Science” would always be the main inspiration of the long talks. Or maybe, madaldal sila, madaldal dn ako, o palibhasa, ganun lng talaga chemistry ko sa kanila or nila sa kanilang teachers or sa kanilang nakakasalamuha. For that here’s for the two of them: “I could only wish for your continued interest in your passion. May your fire continue to blaze amidst the struggles that life is throwing you. May you be able to overcome all the difficulties of the path that you have chosen so you may find the entrance that you are looking for. Continue dreaming! And never stop believing! Because I know that you have so much more to give out to this human race and to this beautiful world that we live in.” See you when I see you!!!